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tomyfuturespouse:

The more I want to find you just means the longer I’ll have to wait. I’m sorry it’s taking me so long to fall in love with Jesus first.

im up by 8:30 (boo) and walk out of my messy room and no one is here. so i think that today im going to try to honor my parents by washing all the dishes and doing some chores around the house.

maybe afterwards i can get a bite before church with one f my friends. if not ts no big

by the way

i would like to ask for prayer. i feel like im starting to be attacked harder and and harder.

a replacement at my job was hired for me because i am expected to fail. i haven’t receivedsome money that i am waiting for to take care of some bills. no one else has called me for a job opening. my dad still cant go to work due to surgery. im being tempted and temped with the same sins and at times i fail. and im kind off  scared that what i want to be as far as professiongoes will never be. i want to be a youth pastor. on top of that one of the hardest things to remember and apply is to seek first, i get distracted with fears and what ifs and am i in the right place?. then next thing that i need to remember is that if she is for me then i just need to be patient.

AND DONT GET ME STARTED ON PATIENCE. i feel that is the whole reason im in the struggle. as if God is telling me yet again to cool out and not try so hard under my own strength. as like what i need to do is delight myself in him. in his word.

ex if i go to war without a wepon i will not fight back. i will be killed. well the word of God is my weapon, it is my sword. and the word is God. God is Jesus and through Jesus we have the victory, so i can not lose if i have Jesus. therfore feast on the word and learn to use your weapon to fight back. AGAIN I SAY WE HAVE THE VICTORY IN JESUS

lol i realize im all over the place right now but i woke up thinking all these things. but through all my probles and all my trials and tribulations. fears and and confusion, one thing does remain. God never fails, he never does give up on me and He is always good. my life belongs to Him and i will praise Him. i long for my father and till the day i live with Him i will proclaim his name. so if you read this, i pray you are blessed by it in one way or another.

anyway i got to go

thanks for your prayers

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seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

jesus first :]

so some of my followers may have read my post about being a leader with out the title. well today i got confirmation. no need for all the big details but i know God is still using me. i learned to chill in Him. I’m so easily aggravated when things don’t go the Way hope or as fast as i want them to go. but i need to enjoy my time in the days i am living now. count it all joy.

^{James 1:2} Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,^[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, ³ because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. ⁴ Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

so yes … not having the job i want or being able to take the classes i want and ill go even as far as saying not being in the relationships i want with my family friends everyone else around me because of dumb decisions i made before taking it up with authority (my God)

but now i must make the best of everything

yeah the enemy will try and knock me down at any point. when i am feeling like this or wen i am already down, but i trust in the Lord, and He alone is my victory

anyway just saying if you feel attack remember God is in control if you let Him. in any situation. doesn’t mean it has to be my example its in general

if you read this i hope you are encouraged and bless.

GOD IS SO GOOD

Water you turned into wine, opened the eyes of the blind there’s no one like you none like You!
Into the darkness you shine out of the ashes we rise there’s no one like you none like You!
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other.
Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God! Our God!

Into the darkness you shine out of the ashes we rise there’s no one like you none like You!
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other.
Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God! Our God!
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other.
Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God! Our God!

And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us.
And if our God is with us, then what could stand against.
And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us.
And if our God is with us, then what could stand against.
What could stand against.

Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other.
Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God! Our God!
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other.
Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God! Our God!
And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us.
And if our God is with us, then what could stand against.
And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us.
And if our God is with us, then what could stand against.
Then what could stand against.

Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other.
Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God! Our God!
Our God is greater, our God is stronger, God you are higher than any other.
Our God is Healer, Awesome in Power, Our God! Our God!

so i track bible and Jesus on my tumblr and let me just say, i don’t know if i should be mad sad or both at how confused ppl are.

so many ppl mock the Guy who died for them saying stupid jokes and posting idiot pics. others are genuinely confused as to what Christ truly did and wants of them. “does God want us to cut ourselves?” really? others saying “Jesus had two dads and he came out fine” leads me to believe that you truly don’t know Him.

Do not misunderstand me, i am not trying to judge. what i am trying to point out is how we, the true followers of Christ need to get out there and help these confused people.

so like i said i dont know if i should be mad or sad but i kinda feel responsible. maybe we should be mad at ourselves for not trying hard enough to be light; for not being Christ like and showing love.

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